Where are you now? September 2009

So deprived thinking of you
Thinking how we used to be
Knowing it was just us two
How could this happen to us
I miss you and me
But it is all your fault
Not mine, yours
Our friendship wasn't everything to exalt
Nobody understood the friendship we shared
It didn't matter to them, only us
But I didn't care
I never got  upset when you didn't call
I put up with you breaking our plans
Because I remember when you would catch me when I would fall
When I would cry, you were there
When I was shy
You found me friends
When I wanted to stop trying
You didn't let me
You hugged me until I stopped crying
We sometimes never had to talk
We could just sit
Or we could just walk
I knew it wouldn't be the same when you left
"I didn't change" you would claim
But, I knew you were wrong
I was second, I didn't matter
I was weak and they were strong
You found a different way to be
You turned to alcohol
You cared more about it then me
I need you
You made me who I am
I don't know what to do
You are there
I am here
I know you got friends and you don't care
You will never know that I appreciate you
Not because of who you are but who you made me
I just wish you felt the same way too
I know our friendship isn't here
No attempt to talk
Our relationship has come to an end is what I fear
Thanks for making the past two years fun
But I knew at one point we would come to an end
I know we aren't done
But I know that we have grown apart
You can say something
Apologizing, would be a good start
Just say sorry for forgetting
Forgetting my thoughts and feelings
You don't even care is what I am betting
My parents told me you were no good
I should have listened to them
I didn't know if I could
I was masked by you charm
I was fooled by your brilliance
I didn't know it would cause me such harm
But it did
You did
I don't want it to be over
But you obviously do
I just want you to be sober
I'm done
You're done
It's done